yawning

Hey, it's last minute. Just wanted to check in before I go to sleep. Took a fragment of a fragment of a 5mg melatonin. Trying to wake up at 7am, for my flight.

I want to write about:

Travel

Why and how I absorbed/interacted with music in the past year, despite the fact that many of the "Year in Review" conversations have come and gone. I think last year's arc tells a story, though.

Same thing as the music thing, but with movies. In the way that I would do it. Oh because I have a whole thought to get out about how your opinion of a movie kinda begins the moment you first hear about it, up until a week later. A hypothetical "you," referring to myself, I guess.

"Process". I wanna write about how and why I've made things.

So, basically, I'm writing about what I want to write, just to see if it makes me follow through. I get too caught up in trying to have control over my narrative. It just sucks when other people get information wrong, and when I invariably lose my memory. Whatever. Relinquish control. For real. But also it couldn't hurt to make an attempt. Sometimes just the "idea" is enough. Skimming. Did I say the same stuff in the last post? I really ought to just go to bed.

Also, I'm not a "Music opinion" and/or "movie review" type of guy, but I think that interacting with these things are kind of benchmarks or whatever in time, and connection to others, by proximity or something. Damn it, I probably sound goofy. It's impossible to get to the bottom of a thought. I also thought about how I don't really complete a thought because everything I write is just about "whatever" and not about a subject. Even then, if I'm writing about a "subject," you don't just go off top, er, with the first draft. I just stay "freewriting" and never return.

Rambling because I'm definitely ready for sleep. I'm definitely anxious about my trip. Just. Doing extra shit instead of admitting to myself "Go to sleep". It's awesome.

Ok, goodnight.