Remit

I’m almost sure I had begun a “web log” on this account, but I probably deleted it in a fit of random embarrassment.

Hi. I’m Pete. I’m in a phase of my life that isn’t the same phase as the previous phase of my life.

As of this current moment, it is 3:44 AM, and I was reminded of the idea of keeping a public journal, which is something I did consistently for a while in the years after high school.

I can’t think of anyone other than maybe two specific people who would be interested in this “project,” and that thought makes me oddly comfortable.

While I ought to go to sleep, I’ll go ahead and finish this sequence of thoughts. In fact, if I’m awake this late I might as well write as long as I want.

I’m wondering if my younger public journals did anything in the way of holding myself liable to follow through with any ambitions I might’ve had at the time. That’s something I’ll intend to pay attention to, this time around.

The sincere tone in which I’m writing is:

1. Reminding me of the fact that, over the years, I’ve gotten less “cryptic” in word choice. I’m still deciding whether or not that’s a good thing.

2. What I’d like to think is the “voice” I use when I’m talking to a group of people. It’s not. I’m usually reduced to nervous laughter and canned phrases like “hell yeah” or “exactly”.

Earlier on, I really thought that everyone was going to be “blogging” and that’s not entirely untrue but I thought it was gonna be more like this, you know? I’m not gonna get too much into that conversation, I guess.

I’ll save the next one to pick up where “Hi. I’m Pete” left off. This is the Foreword, I guess. It doesn’t count; I’m just deciding if this is something I should do. It’s 4:13. I thought it was too late for melatonin, 2 hours ago.

I also kind of wanted a place to “be honest”— and what I mean by that is, I think about how: in real life, I tend to want/expect interactions to be over-with as soon as they need to be. Elsewhere on the internet, I want interactions to be.. “happy” in the broadest sense. 

Remind me to discuss “honesty” further at some point. I’m going to wrap this up. I’m going to try to wake up earlier than 4am will allow.

Anyway, thanks!